Four years ago, a day like today would've made me feel like a failure.
I would've posted these same pictures and talked about the same fun, but while posting I would've been thinking about how I wasn't good enough.
I would be posting the pictures to show off Quinn and how adorable he was, (Alice wasn't here yet, but she's super cute too) not to share the AMAZING time we had.
And it was amazing.
We went to the new library and got Quinn's first library card. They happened to also have a train there today so we hopped aboard and had a train ride. (Also they have this really awesome life-size chess set 😍) We went to the hardware store to mail some packages (there's a post office inside) I let Quinn buy the three of us water on the way out. He was so excited about being able to keep the 7 coins he got as change and the receipt, that even 2 hours later when he saw dad he was adamant that he is saving the receipt forever.
The hardware store guy gave both Quinn and Alice a flag, and they loved that too.
Then we went to the playground for like 30 minutes. Nothing big, but enough to get out some energy.
It was a GREAT day.
When we got home Alice slept for 2 hours and Quinn and I watched some Planet Earth.
So, why would I have felt like a failure 4 years ago?
You guys, I didn't touch the dishes. I didn't vacuum the disaster that was left under the kitchen table from dinner last night, or the crumbs in the den from a snack yesterday. I didn't even look in the direction of the laundry.
Why would this have bothered me? Because I would've felt lazy. I would've felt like I didn't do my job for the day.
Back then it wasn't about living in the moment and enjoying where I was.
Back then I felt like my only value was in how much I got done around taking care of Quinn and making sure HE had fun.
Instead today, I had fun WITH the kids. I didn't worry about what didn't get done, because there's always time here or there for that other stuff. (Like how I quickly did the dishes after dinner and I'll throw the laundry in in a few.) The kids weren't perfect today, we had meltdowns and tantrums.
But the DAY was perfect.. for us. 💜
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